Mothers Day.

I hate this day. Let me just start with saying that. Now, why I hate it is a different reason. I am not one of those teenage mothers who gave their child up for adoption because they couldn't take care of them. That is not the reason at all. I have not been pregnant ever.

I hate today because it is mothers day. The day to celebrate mothers everywhere. But what is the point when you barely speak with your mother? When you talk to her once a month when she wants you to babysit and that is all she wants you for. To be a babysitter. Watch your other half-siblings so she can go out and be a drunk.

A mother is someone who should be there for her kids. Be there and call them because she misses them. Say that you lover your child with every fiber in your body. Make sure they are OK and alive. Be with them to the end on things and help with their upbrining.

My mother does not fit that. Sure I love her but I don't ever talk to her. We used to be so close and now this. We don't know what is going on in each others lives. No idea what the other is doing, ever. It is a sad thing. I want to make it all better, but I can't be the only one wanting to make a relationship with the other.

So, I vow, that the day I become a mother I will not abandon my child, ever. I want to give life to a son/daughter and be there for everythgin. Be there for them.
I just hope I do not fail them as my mother failed me.

Peace and love,
Nicollette
-The forgotten daughter